my smile is worth a thousand of your lies.
you lie on command, i smile.
on command.

please don’t go saying you need me.
when you never cared.
and your life that you left for me.
mirrors that of the dead.
kiss me at the door to your bed.
and tell me to go home instead.

do you believe in love? you know. that thing that rips you apart. and leaves you naked on the floor. breathing. for a new start. a new hope. that would be different at the new door. of a new love. a new dependent. a new mouth to kiss. lies to feed. food to distress. and body to undress.

would you like to dance? in an open dealing of wild feelings. take me down whole. wise me up to the world. i am yours today. where should i lay? how long do i have to laugh. before you ask me to stay? how long do we breathe in awkward off beat patterns. before you push me away?

the flowers in my hair.
are put there for you.
to attract the very being.
that kills the very feeling.
that life could get me.
without you.

do i stop now. or go on. with you. to love me. to hate me. to scratch my back. and i yours. never let my head. hit the bed. without your hand behind it.

you have a killer smile.

you don’t get it. but i do. but not in you. in your eyes. i might see the truth.
and that is in you. my tongue is more important. then my truth.

and we. might as well. go home to our families. and we. might as well. call our hearts off crazy. and i. might as well. steal the stranger’s angry. and you. might as well. hurt my heart completely. so we. can move on.
again.

take your hands from inside of me. put them to good use beside of me. and kiss the mouth thats feeds you. and bite the hand that leads you. because we aren’t going to last forever. but we could try. for a hope that we’d stay together. and then die. knowing the choice we made was wrong. and that we knew it all along.

because i know that love would be incredible. and love could be a savior.
and love.
could kill my ideas.
on love.

and i would love.
for a chance.
to feel death for life now.

your stares on me are friendly.
so i will kiss you softly.
and be. the girl of you dreams.
but you are not who my mother promised for me.

please don’t say another word.

my lie is worth a thousand of your smiles.
you smile on command, i lie.

you understand.