nothing important

standing in line, looking lame.
wondering why everyone else looks the same.
these boys in tight pants are freaking me out.
and honey, jenkos were gone a long time ago.
could there be something i don’t know about?
when did i get so old?
i can’t believe him holding her hand.
she has a belly the size of an acre of land.
maybe [...]

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eh.

Like money for squirrels.
I might be pointless in this world.
I am not alone.
But might as well be.
I am lonely.
And have nothing left of me.
A wish goes unwished.
When you don’t believe in stars.
I blame my mother for the pessimistic thoughts.
I blame my dad for this obsession of chasing after cars.
Instead of dreams.
Relying on someone else.
For everything.
I [...]

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i need a cigarette.

i was told today that i didn’t know what i wanted. i was told that i was unintelligent. i was told that my life was heading nowhere. i was told all this… then i ran away.
i’ve never ran so fast away from someone before. as if her words were knives that were attacking who i [...]

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standing in line, looking lame.

…as usual.
thank your mother for her mistakes
they might be the only flaws in you i can take
the truth of you is honestly
more about your smile then your cruelty
and i’ll take you for a ride sometime
and we’ll come back tomorrow
but you won’t want to run home
just ask me and i promise we won’t go
you can save [...]

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a thought about me.

In third grade every student was given a pine tree to plant on earth day. I was not. I often wonder what the world would be like now, had I gotten to plant that tree.
I don’t really care about environment issues, or war issues, or Africa issues – Though I read a book about AIDS [...]

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The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it [...]

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your back to me.

tired hands that sweep over confused thoughts. my knee. your palm. my mouth and yours. and we try so hard to let go. so hard to breathe. so hard to let it go away. only time my friend. only time. and i will never see you again.
you were once a love. and you won’t let [...]

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