tonight.

stronger. no stranger.
to me.
your face. wins the race.
eyes. don’t take the danger.
it’s mine.
hold back.
fight back.
eat shit.
and grow from your mistake.
mistook. me? i love it all.
i can’t believe.
we’re still alive.
after all.
you’re my wonderwall.
you’re my waterfall.
you’re my friend. afterall.
you’re trippin.
we got dis.
i’m open to your control.
hold on.
faster. faster.
if i let go.
you’ll come back.
if i let go.
they might [...]

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Flowers in December

by Mazzy Star
(this is my second favorite song of all time.)
before I let you down again,
I just want to see you in your eyes.
I wouldn’t have taken everything out on you,
I only thought you could understand.
they say every man goes blind in his heart,
and they say everybody steals somebody’s heart away.
and I got nothing more [...]

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the way i was.

you humored me today. calling me out- to humble me.
i was trying to hold myself up so that you wouldn’t crumble me.
i can’t get mad. so i grow weary.
i don’t get mad- only so you don’t hear me.
(i used to cry. use tears to get my way.
i used to let them see me. it was [...]

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i guess i should’ve been more like that.

i never wanted to be pink.  but i might be.
a little girly on the inside. insecure. in love with sunshine and roses and horses.
romantic. smiles are my favorite. give me a hug goodbye. i might never see you again.
that kind of girl.
that kind of sweet desperation. the kind of candy you want to suck [...]

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you, beautiful girl.

for all of you who never knew you were something good. i’m sorry. we should have built into you more.
when you came out of your room with your grandmother’s dress and fairy wings i should have swung you in my arms, so you could know what it feels like to really fly. instead, i yelled [...]

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ain’t no sunshine.

i’m a little afraid of going home.
i will sit outside my house, waiting in my car.
listening to music. counting the songs.
praying to god, wishing on stars.
i don’t want to go inside. i don’t need that in my life.
i wonder what it be like to live on my own.
my father wouldn’t ask if i took a [...]

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