it’s a little too dark and cold to run outside today. but i will have to eventually. my health is not up to me. it’s up to a girl sitting on the floor with pink shorts, a jungle-green tank top, and a grey zip up hoodie. she’s more devoted than i.

i’ve run the chicago marathon in 100 degree heat people!

there are a hundred songs that i love like they were in my top ten, but there are only two songs that i love above the rest. green eyes by coldplay, and babylon by david gray. coldplay and gray rhyme. nice.

i made coffee today that was too strong. coffee doesn’t wake me up, it just makes me happy. i’m happy enough. i slept til 3 o’clock.

‘and if you want it, come and get it, for crying outloud.
the love that i was giving you was never in doubt.
let go of your heart, let go of your head.
and feel it now.’

im glad you can be nice to me. even if you had to be completely humbled first. you don’t treat me all that great. but i like you. and thats all i know. what do i want from you? i want you to want me and just me. no big deal.

‘honey, you are a rock upon which i stand,
and i come here to talk, i hope you understand.’

“oh matt just bought me something! thats exciting…” says my lovely friend with pink shorts, as she checks her text messages.

good for you.

one time a boy bought me a pink wrigley field t-shirt down in wrigleyville. he wanted to make me happy. he found he could by buying me things. like buying me twenty-five dollar shirts that i only wear to sleep in. he grew resentful of me that i never turned down a drink offer, and that i never offered to buy HIM a drink. i figured that stuff was pointless, especially if i put out.

‘honey, you are the sea, upon which i float.’

my mom tells me that im too good for the boys i love. she don’t know me. how am i too good for someone as intelligent, beautiful, and witty as he is? i guess i just deserve someone who loves me. and thats what she’s saying.

it’s getting late, and i just woke up. i hate this winter sun setting thing.

‘green eyes, youre the one that i wanted to find.
and anyone that tries to deny you, must be out of their mind.’