i took pictures of a another drunken social scene.
now its just a vaulted story from a narcissitic beauty queen.
smile for the camera, make it love you.
take your clothes off for the man, drink me like you do.
isn’t this what you wanted?
is this what you were waiting for?

another blackened memory, complete with eros, ahhs and kegs.
another open heart confused with open legs.
remember when you tried to kiss me?
i turned you down, down, down.
i told the dark to finally let you take me.
you took me down, down, down.
isn’t this what you wanted?
it was all you had been waiting for.
and now it’s gone.

roll the dice, was you’re advice.

everything i know will be written in a letter.
i give this one to you, i probably should have known better.
so rip it apart like pink and yellow, party confetti.
it was such a beautiful thing, but you didn’t want me.
i thought all i did was care, and now it’s done.
i couldn’t say i did much to deserve this.
but i know full well, i took it on.
for just another superficial secondhand kiss.

i drew a picture of another broken, future stranger.
you weren’t the one i needed, but i loved your pretty anger.
Georgie Porgie, pudding and pie, kiss the girls and make them cry.
you are the one they wanted, and they never knew why.
is this what i wanted?
isn’t this what i was waiting for?

another blackened memory, took us to the clubs, beds and bars.
another drunken fool crashing into cars.
remember when i tried to chase you?
you turned me down, down, down.
i gave you the lite the italian gave me.
you drank them down, down, down.
isn’t this what you wanted?
it was all you had been waiting for.
and now it’s gone.

your black tuxedo. my libido.

everything i know will be written in a letter.
i give this one to you, i probably should have known better.
roll it up like spleunking maps, like oragami.
it was such a difficult thing, but you didn’t want me.
i thought all i did was care, and now it’s done.
i couldn’t say i did much to deserve this.
but i know full well, i took it on.
for just another loveless, lifeless, blow me kiss.

we moved too fast, now it’s too late.
can we both be sorry? it was an honest mistake.

we’re all the same.
it’s just a game.
i love you was a gamble never dealt.
but it wasn’t just mine, but your soul that felt.
it’s life and it’s all we get.
not so worthless, so we place our bet.

isn’t this what we’ve been waiting for?
and i’m just another shameless, dirty, empty whore.