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I once knew a girl. In the years of my youth. With eyes like the summer all beauty and truth. In the morning I fled, left a note and it read: Someday you will be loved.

what’s you’re name, alyssa? can i tell you something? you won’t take this as a pick up line. i mean it just as a compliment. your eyes are crazy. like strangely beautiful.
thank you, that’s really sweet of you to say.
ha. i go and get take out, and i see the coolest looking eyes i’ll ever see in my whole life. thank you.

Do you think I’m pretty?
You know what I think.
No. I don’t.
I think you look like your sister and your sister is beautiful.
Is that a cop out? Cuz if you think I’m pretty you can tell me.
you know I think your pretty.
But beautiful like my sister?
No not that pretty.

Maybe it’s like i didn’t say no, cause i kinda wanted you to not try.
that’s not fair to put on me. i’m a guy and you’re pretty.
yeah, and now you’re just like everyone else.

How many times are you gonna lie to me? I always figure it out. Stop lying to me. Would you rather a friend who stuck around because she was ignorant. Or one who knew what was going on and still cared about you anyway?
I’d want you to know, i guess… I’m getting better! But its hard. I’m trying for you. for you I am.

it’s like i’ve been testing everyone… and everyone has failed. the problem is, they just get mad, like my tests are unfair. they might be. the thing i always liked about him is that he understood how he failed, and so he never yelled at me for holding him to a standard that wasn’t real. he just kept on being a dick. he was honest about his slight as the man of my dreams. it kind of made him become that.

You’re gonna find a girl who loved you no matter what and you’re gonna not love her back because you just won’t respect her for loving you.
That’s not true.
You don’t respect me.
I respect you more than you think.
I’m not retarded. I know what’s going on here.

do you think you could be friends with her?
probably not.
even if she apologized?
eh, she doesn’t think she did anything wrong. and so she won’t ever apologize… and therefore not worth my time. plus she’s ugly and is currently putting on weight.

You gonna mess around with her tonight?
No. I have no plans on that.
Then why are you even going?
I don’t even want to.
But you’re gonna go.
Yes.
And you’ve never asked me to go.
Yes.
Okay. Just figuring this out.

i can’t really be around you right now.
why? because i’m happy. alyssa you’re going to have to get over it, i am happy. and it’s there. let me enjoy it.
i can’t.
thats not really going to work for us.
i know. so maybe i should just take a you and me vacation til either you’re sad, or well, til you’re sad again.

What do you want from me? You want me to treat you like shit? Will that make you respect me?
Well I think I’m used to girls taking advantage of me so it makes sense.
Well I can’t treat you like shit cuz I don’t think you’re shit. Okay?
Okay.

i’m sorry i can’t really can’t make out with you right now.
why not?
cause i won’t be able to enjoy it, and really i would just be doing it as an attempt to make someone who doesn’t care, jealous, and that’s not really going to help anything.
are you serious right now?

If you cared about me you’d let me go.
I can’t. I’m selfish. What can I say?

He loves you.
He’s drunk.
No today at lunch he was sober he couldn’t stop talking about you.
Yeah?
He really loves you. Its weird.

Why would I take you out to the city when I know I can just take you to my house and fuck you.
Wow.
I didn’t mean that.
No you did. It makes sense. I’m gonna go.

She’s never been good to you and here you want her to like you so bad. And I’ve been nothing but good and you so badly want to throw me away. Do it already. Stop keeping me around.

Alyssa I like you. I want you around me. I want to know to forever. I want to call you and talk. I want to be your friend. I don’t know what it is about you. But you’re growing on me.

He’s afraid to let his friends know me. And its weird cuz I’m kind of a lot prettier than anyone else he showed off to his friends.

people like me because i am smart, funny, pretty, athletic and interesting. well rounded.
you are not like that.
you must have a poster of ralph nader on your wall.

Why do you got to pretend that you’re not in love with me?
I’m not.
everyone loves me, has once loved me, or will love me, i’m pretty amazing.
Is that why you stick around even though I treat you like shit? Cuz you’re waitin for me to fall in love with you?
No. I’m waiting for you to admit that you already do.
I don’t.
I’m not arguing.

he’s a bad judge in character. thats all i know. the girls he falls for are always the ugly, snotty, butch, bitchy ones with no sense of humor.  so for reasons that don’t need be said, i will just say he wasn’t going to ever love me. and it was all my fault. i should have sucked more.

What do you think? I like you more than you know.  You’re not ordinary. You’re beautiful. You’re interesting. You make me laugh. You make me laugh, you got that?

I don’t know why you call me everyday.
Because I want to talk to you.
Why do you want to talk to me?
Why do I have to tell you why all the time? Can’t I just call you and you know?
No. You have to tell me.
I’m not gonna spell it out for you.
Why can’t you?
I just don’t do that. and wont for you.

What do you think this is? I’m not trying to get with you. Were just friends talking.
What about tomorrow? You’ll be trying then.
Maybe. But right now its real.
I can’t deal with tomorrow.

She thinks you’re weak for liking me.
I’m not weak. I just like you.

I like when a girl invites herself over.
I don’t do that. You need to tell me.
Why can’t you take initiative?
Cause, I shouldn’t have to.
Chivlary is dead.
Then ill never be happy.

Stop crying. Please be happy. I want you always to be happy, Alyssa.

You know I think I’m addicted to making you laugh. Its my one goal in life.

I need you to say it.
Say what?
I like you. I need you to tell me that you like me like I like you.
Well I’m not going to do that.
Then I can’t be your friend. We can’t talk.
Okay if that’s how its going to be.
Yes.
Fine.

You could be happy and I won’t know, but you weren’t happy the day I watched you go.  Somehow everything I own smells of you, and for the tiniest moment it’s all not true. Do the things that you always wanted to, without me there to hold you back, don’t think, just do. More than anything I want to see you, girl, take a glorious bite out of the whole world.