men, women, and other things that don’t matter.

my favorite sister and i are currently not talking. i think she might be home right now, but she would rather die, then walk down the stairs to me, and talk.
what caused this falling out? i like to think it stemmed from the fact that i like to write and she hates [...]

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if it kills me.

i had a celebratory glass of wine with my friend lindsey last night. we watched the little mermaid, and all of a sudden we finished off two and a half bottles. i am completely hung over today. that may or may not have been the wisest thing to do. but i don’t know [...]

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free fallin’

free fallin cover
by john mayer

thanks to rosey dear.

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down to my last.

driving down here, with no reason or purpose to go. do i miss you as much as i pretend to? or am i just using you for entertainment on a thursday night? i go, because i don’t want to say no. i know this. you know it’s not that hard to beg me. [...]

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i could use a shot of your novocaine.

“my soul’s a fuse. blows away your name.
take this souvenir. they can’t deny you were here.
this scar always there. to medicate your fear.”
tell me that you don’t think this is the way it’s going to end. that in the end, you get everything you want, and then some. you don’t get to make [...]

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the last time i really smiled.

so many times i smile. it’s not so hard to pull one out, you just look up, open your mouth a little and lift your cheeks. in a way, i think i really like the way i can feel my upper lip slide over my teeth, but more than that, i like the way [...]

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where you are.

this is not the truth. i never write the truth anyway. i’m more full of fake descriptions of my reality that i honestly know nothing about. i pretend i know what i kind of girl i am, only to prove to myself that i know nothing of me. i speak of love, because speaking of [...]

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oshkosh.

so i had a thought. what if i move away for a semester? you know take classes online, and live in a completely nonexistent area. like oshkosh, wisconsin. right on lake winnebago. it don’t get more disgusting sounding than that. but hey? you know never know. it could change my life. and i’ve got [...]

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i don’t like your cowboy boots…

“I don’t like your cowboy boots
To me they don’t tell the truth
I feel like mine do, I’m from the Midwest
You’re from New York.”
-The Format
i went to dave matthews on saturday. just like the majority of the 20-35 demographic in the chicagoland and greater wisconsin area.
i heard a lot about brett favre, i heard a [...]

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Dear Jace,

I hope this email finds you well, awake, and adjusted. I hope that you are happy. I hope that you had an iced venti green tea sweetened with 5 splendas. Maybe you’ll try 4 splendas today. Maybe you won’t do green tea today. Maybe you won’t even do starbucks. Its no use trying to guess. [...]

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