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its weird when things hit you
but they have to hit you
no one will tell you what your rock bottom is,
or what your hill to climb is,
or what your view from the top will look like
you can have a hundred people telling you that you are destroying your life,
but you really are already aware
its not new
but [...]

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he doesn’t love you.

words that you have always known. they take you for granted, these words. they assume that just because they are out there, they are realized. i love you came to late, never came at all, or came to many times. in the dark, it’s all a sad cliche’.
how many times, can you be told something, [...]

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Smile.

It becomes you.
As if you are what is to become.
Alone. Insignificant. So easy to leave.
To miss me, might be the only flaw left.
You have no flaws. Nothing is too easy for you to leave behind. Except for me. What am I even saying? I do not know. I did not cry. [...]

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Run Chi then Die.

This is a true about how two girls ran the Chicago Marathon on Sunday, October 12th, 2008, and barely made it.
Last year these two girls had trained like maniacs for the 2007 Chicago Marathon. They basically ran all over the world, literally. One girl was in Ireland, studying abroad, and she ran. [...]

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i’ve realized…

when i first started writing, i didn’t write about anything political, as if trying to put my egotistical i know nothing about anything, but still know more than you retards, views aside for the sake of art and entertainment. so as not to alienate people i love, or the ones i don’t know who [...]

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something old to watch.

this is something i saw on a bob hope variety show awhile ago. i used to be addicted to amc, and all black and white movies, when i was 5 to around 12.
ray milland is one of my favorites. bob hope was my favorite, but he’s not really in this video. [...]

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books i cannot finish.

i am in the middle of 8 books right now.
prozac nation, lucky, harry potter and the chamber of secrets, the blue nowhere, how to talk to a liberal if you must, running with scissors, a million little pieces, and the glass castle.
all of which i cannot finish reading because i don’t see their relevance. [...]

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my 23rd birthday.

I wake up in my basement.
I am glad to have not finished the rum and tequila stored under my bed from the night before. I feel non-hungover, which as the new norm, is a delightful state. I walk up stairs to the bathroom where I brush my teeth in the manner the dentist [...]

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forecast: freezing.

normally the night before my birthday i feel very enlightened. i don’t tonight. maybe it’s because i am too tired. or maybe it’s just because i’m an idiot. or maybe it’s because my dad is out of town and i don’t know how to turn on the furnace without him. and it’s freezing. [...]

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